OK, two posts within an hour and a half is new. But really have to get this out of my system. FAST. Need to get some perspective on this.
I chanced upon Mimi’s blog some time ago and reading it has always left me feeling somewhat inadequate. I haven’t been to her site for quite awhile. So, i thought i’d give it a visit. That feeling of inadequacy was reinforced just now. I feel this small(I’m holding my forefinger and my thumb about 1 inch apart) as compared to her, when physically I’m like what, twice her size? She’s so passionate about what she’s doing that I’m left asking myself, “What the hell are YOU doing?”.
Sure, I had the experience of being in a moot. But it was involuntary(for the heck of showing off and making myself feel about that much taller, got a first out of it). But still, Mimi’s doing it out of passion and interest. Reading about her internship is like reading a Marian Keyes’. Hell, she made it sound interesting, dagnamit. Reading about her staying up until 2 am makes me feel like staying up until 2 am. She made exam preparations sound appealing, for God’s sake!
I asked Foy, “Does that make me stupid?”
Obviously(coz he loves me and didn’t want to upset me at 12 midnight), he said no. He said I haven’t found my passion, yet. What hit me like nothing has ever hit me before was when he said, “Successful people are always passionate about what they are doing.”
Gullppp, I’m nowhere near success then. I haven’t even found what I’m passionate about. Let alone work on it. Grreattt.
Perspective, Jid. Perspective. In your case, it has to be a positive outlook. Let’s turn this around then. That means I have to be passionate about my LLB since I haven’t found anything else to be passionate about. God knows that’s going to be hard. But success does not come easy, yes?
Mimi, I hope I haven’t scared u there with my revering of u. You’re inspirational and that’s something to be really proud of.
I’m done. That feeling is out of the window.